Since the end of May, life has been a bit crazy, chaotic, challenging, yet also rewarding and altering all at the same time. It's in the hardest of times that I learn the most, not only about myself, but about my little family; the girls and Dan. There was a lot going on from Ruby starting day care, Didi changing schools, running the Boulder Bolder, saying good bye to Lacy for the summer, a bike accident, my mom coming to get treatment for her eyes, a vacation, and work changing so much for myself and for Dan. Just thinking of the past 3 months makes me tired, but I also feel an immense gratitude for the challenges we faced, because we emerged having learned so much about our core strengths, love, and support for one another, along with a renewed sense of compassion for ourselves and others. Last Saturday, Dan and I took the girls and drove to the top of Mt Evans. It was cathartic for us as it symbolized the largest mountain we had summitted this year ourselves. Mt Evans is the highest paved road in America, it was amazing to get to the top and say we did! We got through the past 3 months and have so much to show for it.
Now that the girls have settled into their new school, a new routine is in place, I felt it was time to start something for myself once again. The first half of the year I was training for the Boulder Bolder and right after that race, it has been difficult for me to sit and recap it. I am incredibly proud of myself for reaching this goal. The race was amazing, I had lots of energy and also lots of nerves. I will definitely recap it and explain my next race goal for 2015 soon. During that race though I realized that I can not take on my next race goal without losing weight. I need to lose 30 pounds before I can seriously start training for my next race. Since my race isn't until fall of 2015, I am taking it by baby steps. I haven't run in 2 months and my body is aching to get back to it. At mile 4.5 in the race, I had extreme knee pain, enough for me to fall over to the sidewalk. I was in tears, I may have been pushing myself too hard, but I also realized all the extra weight I am carrying from having two babies and not watching my diet is effecting my knee pain. That is not the only factor, but a good part of it.
I have been seeing this Whole 30 around the social media circuit and since I did something similar after Didi was born, I knew it worked well. When Didi was born she was allergic to the dairy proteins in my breastmilk and I couldn't have dairy. I dropped about 40 pounds in 3 months and I felt amazing. My energy was up and I felt healthy. Eventually however her digestive track matured and she could have dairy and therefore I started introducing dairy in my diet again. The weight slowly came back on, but of course there were also contributing factors. Looking at the Whole 30 diet, I knew it could be done. I always have that anxiety towards failure, but I am a goal reacher, so I know 30 days is not that difficult in the scheme of things.
Six days and counting now. I would say the only things I really miss are agave in my coffee, I like a sweet coffee and a drink Friday night. Either wine or a margarita is my vice of choice. I was usually eating a protein and veggies for lunch and dinner, plus a grain and dairy like cheese or yogurt, but it hasn't been difficult to turn down the noodles/bread/quinoa, etc. The only dairy I really like is cheese, so eventually I know I will have a craving for it. I would have eggs or oatmeal for breakfast, so not too tough adding a a protein like ham or bacon and dropping the oatmeal. I also added in more fruit, which has been a nice sweet treat. I am not a big fruit eater. I would rather eat an onion than a peach, weird I know.
After almost a week on the Whole 30 I have already seen some non-scale victories. I say non-scale victories because you are not supposed to weigh yourself for the 30 days. I weighed myself on day 1 and will weigh myself on day 30. I have been tempted though, but I won't! The non-scale victories thus far:
- More energy - I haven't been thinking about 2-3 cups of coffee during the day. Sometimes I decide to have a tea, just to have a nice hot drink.
- Less (if any) cravings - I was just telling Dan how I would eat breakfast such as coffee, agave, creamer (coconut or half & half), have oatmeal, then be so starving come 10am. I would actually eat lunch at that time and then would have a snack at like 1 or 2. One thing about eating more nutrient dense foods (veggies and fruits) and more protein, I have been staying full longer and not having cravings. If there are cravings, they aren't as crazy intense. Like last night, I really wanted some chocolate, but instead I had dried fruit (no sugar added) and almonds. It hit the spot.
- I noticed a few shirts and pants fit better yesterday and today.
Not sure if I told you, but I got into a bike accident in June. I was riding to Didi's old school to pick her up and head to swimming lessons. I had the trailer packed with dinner, swim stuff and of course Ruby. I was in the bike lane heading south, then I rode over a small driveway curb to pop onto the sidewalk and I crashed. The cause was the old light system I had on my bike, the old generator was still on the bike as we had not yet removed it. It fell into the spokes, bending and twisting my front tire and my bike went crashing down to the right. My left thumb was crushed, bled under the nail, my right leg was torn up and bleeding and bruised. I was totally shocked. I layed there for a few minutes, then turned around to look at the trailer. Ruby was totally fine, the trailer didn't budge and didn't roll. That thing is built really well and is designed such that if the bike takes a spill, it should remain in place. It did just that and I was so thankful. The sad part is that I crashed in front of a houses on a well used road, at like 4:15 in the afternoon. Three cars drove by and no one stopped, no one even asked if I was ok. No one came out of their houses, nothing. It's pretty sad. I totally would have stopped. I have stopped before and asked people if they were ok. Geesh. At any rate, I made it back to my house and packed the van to pick up Didi and go to swim lessons. It took a month for Dan to fix my bike, it was so messed up from the crash. I was shaky the next few times I went out, but now I am fine. I love my bike(s).
We did go swimming a lot these past few months and one last time probably tomorrow. I can't wait for the weather to cool down, to take more hikes and ride more bikes. I think about the dream I have of owning one car one day and relying mostly on my bike. Could I do it? I think I could, it would be such a fun challenge! One goal and one step at a time though.
And the most important milestone that happened this summer? Ruby Alia turned 1 years old!!! She is such a joy in our life, always smiling, always babbling, always exploring. She is a little lovey, cuddly baby. Not walking yet, which I am thankful for as I soak up her last days of babyhood. She crawls like a quick little spider monkey and laughs when I fake like she is in trouble. She doesn't say any words, well, we think she is saying "hi" sometimes. She uses the sign "more" and loves to point and babble "eh eh eh ah ah ah" when she wants something. Sleeping great mostly through the night and naps everyday around 12:30-3:30 depending. She has 9 (!) teeth, where Didi only had like 4 or 5 at this age. She eats almost everything, but dislikes eggs, waffles, and avocado. She loves graham crackers, string cheese, all green veggies like peas, broccoli, green beans, and edemame. She really doesn't like white potatoes, but does sometimes like mashed sweet potatoes. She loves water and taking walks in her stroller or the backpack and especially likes going up and down the stairs. She scales those things like Spiderman. Her 1 year old pictures are scheduled for tomorrow, so excited. I will share when they are available. Oh little Ruby, we love you soooooo much, you complete our family :)
Off to enjoy this quiet time while Ruby is asleep and Dan and Didi are at the splash pad. What to do? What to do?